Deep

Deep is the sea
Dip a toe in
Be enticed, free
The foot, the ankle

Deeper still
Begin to fall, shackle
Be enticed, loses its thrill
Deep is the sea

Sustain Me.

We have been traveling to the Springs every Sunday for 12 weeks to attend a missions course call Perspectives in Missions. It's been great; great lectures, great kids program, great snacks, great time with husband but mostly great being able to worship God 2 times on Sunday! I so love worship. I cry when I sing praise to Him because I am so excited to be in heaven and have the freedom/time to praise Him with song whenever I want. How sweet will that be?!

Anyway, I got off track... Today I am struggling with being tired of being strapped financially. God has provided in amazing ways over the last several years. I am thankful. Sometimes though, I just don't want to have to check the bank balance to see if I can buy yogurt. This day -to-day living is exhausting!

Today I have been laying my burden at his feet. Each time I feel stressed or discouraged I choose to praise Him for what He has done and what He will do. He is faithful.

Matthew 4:4 - "Jesus answered, 'It is written: Man does not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God."

Today I chose to cling to what He says about my circumstance. My Father knows what I need.

Withdrawal.

Sitting, at my desk I ponder why it is so hard for me to take care of myself. My heart longs to break out of the pattern of care for Chris, care for kids, care for family and whatever is left Tina gets. I struggle because putting others first is Christ-like. I want to be like Christ. However, I know that He took time away in silence for prayer, meditation and silence. That is so hard for me. I make progress in the area and then I fall back into the same dang pattern. It's frustrating.

So, contrary to what I want/need to do right now. I will leave this house in its messy state and get on my knees before Him; pray for wisdom and transformation of my ugly pattern. My prayer is that He will build my faith by continuing His work in me and the gradual transformation will be apparent to me and others. This way, we can catch a glimpse of who He is and how, through Him, we can become more like Him. I need that hope right now.

Recipe for Wellness

I have been feasting on wellness remedies!!!! Here's my recipe for wellness. Results to be determined.

Ingredients -
Oil of Oregano
Emergen-C
Zinc
Cold Eaz Hot Tea
Umcka Cold Care
ETC!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Three cheers for health and wellness. Oy.